I am going to make everthing around me beautiful.
That will be my life. - Elsie de Wolfe
I recently participated in a 10-day guided meditation by Carrie-Anne Moss, who is mostly known for her work as a talented actress. She is probably lesser known as a devoted Kundalini yoga teacher, and a woman with a mission of elevating, inspiring, & nourishing women's inner worlds through her website called Annapurna Living. I have been obsessed with this site every since I found it. It feeds my deeply feminine soul - and aligns perfectly with my own work.
I love how Carrie- Anne describes meditation as sitting at "altar of your soul."
On the final day of the meditation, she asked us a question that had been asked by one of her teachers, "What kind of life do you truly want - not from your head, but from your heart." This question has been something that I have pondered for years. Yes, years, it may not be something every woman asks herself. But I do, and I think it's important - actually very important.
So I sat down with my journal and pen in hand, and this is what arose for me.
A TRULY NOURISHED LIFE -
To connect to myself and others
To honor and nourish myself - fully & deeply
To surrender & flow with what shows up
To invite in spaciousness
To stop + just be
To break my heart open again and again
To love what I love without question or hesitation
To truly cherish myself and all that I am becoming
To be joyful
And to have freedom, strength, + courage to live this life.
I was then left with my vision of what that would look like, and how it would appear on a day to day basis. Much of my outer surroundings has changed over the years, as my inner world has shifted. My house and my life are filled with everything I love - and that has meaning to me. I envelope myself in that which nourishes me. It's been said before that we know the truth by the way it feels. A truly nourished life feels good and flows with ease and abundance.
As I've gotten more aware, quiet, and in tune with my inner knowing, I can not
be where I am not feeling nourished.
In January of this year, for the second year in a row, with the book The Desire Map as my guide, I wrote down my core desired feelings (and posted the list below on Instagram). In this glorious book, that is loved by many, Danielle LaPorte asks us, "HOW DO YOU WANT TO FEEL?" According to her, our lives are never about the goal itself - but how the goal will make us feel. It is a simple, but revolutionary way to find out what our heart longs for. Or as it is called, "our soul's cry."
We all want to feel nourished, supported, & guided. And I would also add sincerely appreciated.
If you unearth some of the answers to the questions - how do you want to feel in your livelihood + lifestyle, your body + wellness, your creativity + learning, your relationships + society, and
your essence + spirituality,
you may find that your whole life has to change.
And that can be scary - and exciting, all at the same time.
I know that it can be very difficult to make a daily commitment to yourself, especially when you are a wife, mother, friend, woman on a mission, and everything else. But we must make that commitment - or everything and everyone around us suffers. By nourishing yourself and building a life that mirrors those desires, you have an abundance of love to share with others.
So how can we support this process in ourselves, be supported, and truthfully, how can we carve out the time and attention that is needed. There is no easy answer. You just have to create the time for yourself.
I like to do a morning check in with myself - or it's easy to lose myself in the happenings of the day, and also to find a small piece of the day for you - and only you. And choose the places and spaces that match your core desired feelings.
To know what we truly want is always growing and evolving, as we grow and evolve. The life I desired at 29 is very different at 44 years old. It is a luxury for some to follow the path of the heart. But if we don't follow the path of the heart, are we truly living a nourished, full and deep life? Are we living our life or a version of someone else's?
These are all valid questions asked for hundreds of years. So back to a life that truly nourishes, what does that look like to you? And more importantly, how does it feel?
Only you can answer that question.
My nourished life includes lots of joy, connection, and freedom but also pain, sorrow, loss, disappointment, and failure. We can not have one without the other - and it's exhausting to try.
One thing I am certain of on the path to building a truly nourished life - you don't lose yourself there.
You find yourself.
So keeping building a truly nourished life, dear one.
We need you to.
FOR MORE GUIDANCE
- www.annapurnaliving.com - another 10 day Meditation is starting April 20th.
- Danielle LaPorte, The Desire Map | A Guide to Creating Goals with Soul
- A session with me.